February 22, 2011
Have you heard of the Brain Tumour Foundation of Canada? If you are in Canada, and if you or someone you know is facing a brain tumour you should look them up. They provide a wealth of resources and friendly faces to help you in any way they can. Whether that be through an information session on the latest drug therapies, to educational materials, to funding research. How do I know this? I volunteer for them of course! Seriously, who else would I volunteer for?
Their Spring Sprint is a series of runs they organize across the country to raise money for the foundation. Check out if they have a run in your city, and sign up. I ran in Toronto last year and it’s a fun way to spend time with friends and family, get some fresh air and exercise, and eat lunch with some really inspirational people.
If you can’t find a run in your city, that’s where I come in! I am their Volunteer Co-ordinator for the Virtual Spring Sprint. You can still form a team, raise money, and set your own date (between April 16th to June 12th, 2011) and route to run. The more people who sign up for the virtual run the better because you not only help us raise much needed funds, but also raise awareness in communities where people may not be familiar with the Brain Tumour Foundation and the Spring Sprint.
October 7, 2010
It feels like a lifetime since I shifted myself onto the operating table, and lay there shaking and bawling my eyes out, terrified as I was about to have a craniotomy. My first time in hospital, and I was having brain surgery. Frankly, it brings tears to my eyes even now.
It has changed my life profoundly, I am different. In May, with nothing else lined up, I quit my job that was making me miserable. It was one of the best decisions I have ever made. And so began Sarah’s ‘Summer of Love’. I decided to take time off from work, and do only the things I loved. As a designer, I worked on my creative passions – whiled away hours in front of my sewing machine, and took regular trips out with my camera. Every now and again I went out and networked with others in the industry, or picked up small design jobs to keep things ticking over.
I ran, went spinning, and generally sweated until I was soaked through. I also joined a gym and fulfilled a longterm dream of working with a personal trainer. He did my general fitness assessment, and jokingly asked if I wanted to get started the next morning (a Saturday) at 6am. I don’t think he expected “ok then!”. Three months later and he’s still stuck with me.
Through all this I found my passion for design again. Now I do all the things I love AND am busy as a freelance designer. Life is balanced and I am happier, healthier and fitter than I have ever been before.
People sometimes comment that I am hardcore, impetuous, or that I ‘bounce off the walls’. Of course I bloody do! You think that’s a bad thing? I work out five times a week because I love it, I have more energy than I know what to do with. I pick up projects, and work with people that inspire me. I make better money than I ever did in my miserable job (just a nice side effect). But really, you don’t know what hardcore means… hardcore is having a head full of staples, throwing on a hat, and taking the dog out in the snow.
April 18, 2010
Well my 1 year anniversary came and went without big occasion in January. My husband and I went out for a quiet dinner to celebrate, something that was hard to imagine a year ago.
This week I had my 1 year follow up with my surgeon. My MRI showed a clear head with no sign of tumour re-growth. My next follow up will be in 2 years, and I suspect I will continue to have these follow-ups for 10 years based on a 7% risk of recurrence in that time frame.
Still no smell, but you know what? It’s been so long now, that I don’t even think about it.
December 9, 2009
My 10 month anniversary flew by so fast I didn’t even notice – in fact a fellow Meningioma blogger had to remind me – thanks Lesly!
On the 28th Nov, my actual anniversary, I was preparing to head to NYC to direct a photoshoot for one of my clients. That pretty much says it all, I am back on my game at work leading a huge project and enjoying not having any health issues holding me back.
It’s been a turbulent year though, and I still struggle with my sense of perspective at work. Bizarrely I care WAY too much about it. You’d think I’d have a healthy sense of “this isn’t brain surgery”, but apparently not. Oh well, let’s just call it work in progress!
I had a follow-up with my neurologist last month and there is no sign of tumour regrowth! There is also no sign of my sense of smell, even though I still have one olfactory tract left. More and more I realise that I don’t taste much of my food. I rely on my memory of food tastes, and texture and colour are everything. When I taste something new I often have no idea what it is (this happened the other day). Not because I couldn’t place the flavour, but because I just couldn’t taste anything! So now I accept it, I have no sense of smell and I can’t taste much either.
My next surgical follow-up is in April 2010, and so far everything is good
August 17, 2009
When we were in Paris recently, my husband and I decided to go back to the Eiffel Tower where we were engaged. Wouldn’t you know, they now have metal detectors before you can go up and see the view. I walk through and “beeeeep”! For a split second I forgot and tapped my pockets looking for change, then it hit me. My head! “Euuuhhh, Il y a quelque chose dans ma tête…” as I point frantically at my head. The security guard looked at me like I was crazy… and thankfully took pity and let me go through.
August 17, 2009
Last week I had an EEG (electroencephalogram) which is a test that detects abnormalities in the electrical activity of the brain. It is the first step in trying to work out the cause of my olfactory hallucinations. If it is due to seizures, it will show up in this test, and seizures mean I might have to go back on anti-convulsants, which I DO NOT want to do. I categorically hate drugs and how they make me feel.
It’s a bizarre test, that doesn’t hurt or have any side effects but it’s boring and time consuming. When lying on a bed, the technician applied 30 electrodes to my head using a huge amount of goopy paste to make them stick. They were all through my scalp, on my forehead and temples, and under my chin. I wanted to take a picture of myself but she woudn’t let me as it is against hospital policy. It would have made for an excellent photo!
During the test you just lie there, and follow instructions to open your eyes, close your eyes, open your eyes, close your eyes, open your eyes, concentrate on a spot on the wall… thrilling I know. Then while your eyes are closed they flash lights at you at an ever increasing rate. This was the most uncomfortable part of the test as normally you would be able to cover your eyes or look away, instead you have to lie motionless and endure. The technician then turned off all the lights and I had to lie there for an exorbitant amount of time – motionless and with with my eyes closed. It was maybe 20 minutes, but could equally have been just 10, all I know was that my head started to itch and I couldn’t do anything about it!
I get the results at the end of October when I next see my neurologist again. Fingers crossed – even though I don’t believe in this, what’d done is done and it’s not in my control to change it.
July 27, 2009
Time flies (and not only when you are having fun), it has been 6 months already. I just got back from my 3 week honeymoon that we had to cancel. It was just what the doctor ordered, and I was able to totally forget about what life has thrown as of late.
I now feel better than ever, better than I ever did before surgery. I continue to try to re-build my fitness and to be honest 3 weeks in France and the UK, and a bottle of wine a day certainly did not help! But walking or cycling everywhere, and with regular spinning sessions, I am still fitter than many people I know, even post brain surgery.
That feel good vibe can also be attributed to 8 months of a pescetarian diet, and a large daily dosage of omega 3′s, vitamin C, D and B’s. If I run out of any of them, particularly omega 3′s, I really notice it and find myself craving fats. What the brain needs, the brain gets!
I still have no sense of smell and have an EEG in a couple of weeks to make sure my olfactory hallucinations are not seizures. My neurologist does not think this is the case, but it’s good to rule out. We can then move onto other investigations into the cause and potential return of smell into my life.
My next CT and follow up are already booked for April 2010. I am impressed with St. Michael’s Hospital and my doctors, and really feel like I am in safe hands.